ahem.

- good hair.
- good shoes.
- good taste in music.
- easy on the eyes.
- nice eyes, in general.
- plays cello.
- loves jesus.
- blogs.
- tweets.
- shares his food.
- compatible zodiac sign.
- texts first.
- holds door open for me.
- GREAT hugger.

.....

i thought, "he either has a girlfriend. or he's gay."
but nope. you're very much available and into women.

if this isn't screaming we should be together, i don't know anything about life.
we'll see where this goes. if he doesn't like me then it's not the end of the world. or maybe. i don't know.

well hey there.

college is too much fun. so much change. so many people. so many new experiences lingering within my reach. i can't even fathom thinking about my life before i entered this place. it's almost too perfect. i only wish the campus was prettier. and the weather wasn't so unbearably scorching. but other than that, i'm finding my way. i'm meeting great people, and i love playing my cello every day. even though i basically suck as a musician. no biggie. i just need to give up my life to practicing. or, my life will be practicing.

i haven't taken as many photos as i wanted to, but i'll just share the ones that were stuck in my camera. very limited, bare with me.


haha. don't make fun of me. this the night after my first day of college. i already had to read my philosophy book and everything. it was pretty gruesome. i took a nap in this spot shortly afterwards. my sister was there for moral support.

gettin through the night.

this is jeremy. we spend too much time together i think. we're both cello performance majors and basically have the same schedule with the same break times. so i mean, considering the fact that we both never get to see any of our other non-music major friends, how can we not! but i don't mind. he makes me laugh. and ties my shoes when i'm too lazy to bend over. it's pretty apparent that i like the guy. if the cello section hasn't made that obvious enough to him i don't know what will.

candid.

when i was walking down that long flight of stairs next to ham hall, i had to tie my shoe, and saw this on the thing i put my foot on. how welcoming.

cello rep class. eddie makes me laugh. all the time. i don't even respond half the time because the things he says.... makes me speechless. "i want to throw this ice down dominique's shirt but she might have an organism."

ah, the weekend.


sometimes i'll post things on here when i don't know where else to turn. i have a very limited set of eyes reading this blog versus how many read my tumblr so it feels nice to just write without worrying about who's reading. and if anyone mentioned above does end up seeing this well.... then that's embarrassing. hope i have a good semester. september, be good to me.

-c.

shelter.

to be able to sleep at night knowing there's someone beside you,
and wake up seeing he didn't leave.

i think that's all i want.

off.

i want so many things. but i can't really distinguish which ones are right for me. i've been around. i haven't written anything decent in awhile. i don't really know what's the cause of that. i have a really bad headache and i'm avoiding looking at myself in the mirror. i just don't like how i feel. or who i am. all i want to do is just be with my friends. or talk to him. those are the only times i ever feel like i don't have to pretend to be happy. i just don't want to be alone anymore. i think too much when i'm alone.

my sister's birthday was fun. i always like seeing my family. even though my boy cousins are always poking at my fat and wanting to give me wet willies. jim and kirsten's birthday a few days ago was really fun too. i think i'll just share pictures from that night.

bon fire. and looking pretty unattractive.

third wheeling it.

howard.

kirsten.

i was playing jim's guitar and then i dropped the pick. there was no light source besides the fire so i tried to take a picture of the ground to see where it was. but i failed, obviously.



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